WeLcUm 2 My LifE wheREbY I SomEtimEs LeAVe DowN soMe EvEnTS thAt HapPEn to Me.
FaILuRe is SomEthinG ThAt wiLl AlWayS HaPPeN iN LIFe.
BE STRONG N U CAN OVERCOME ANYTHING.
WeLcUm 2 My LifE wheREbY I SomEtimEs LeAVe DowN soMe EvEnTS thAt HapPEn to Me.
FaILuRe is SomEthinG ThAt wiLl AlWayS HaPPeN iN LIFe.
BE STRONG N U CAN OVERCOME ANYTHING.
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Take your time girl. The intensity will gradually decrease. *hugs* You are feelin so tired coz u are still adjusting from yr nuaing lifestyle to working. After that, u will b like me... no need to sleep le... LOL
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O_o the girl on the left sure got good figure!!! *wolfwhistle*
kaoz.. dun act act.. both gd figure. I post front view sure got ppl nose bleed.. LOL..
tats it man!! i posting someone's pic on my blog liao... wahhahahaha
I'm waiting for the pic to be in yr blog, feathers! Muahahaha
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For yr info, this photo was taken by me!!! Pro right?? Look at her flawless back!
... It's NOT FLAWLESS..
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Girl, this vet sounds much better!!! Joker should be fine soonz! At least antibiotics are given for poisoning! NOt like e previous one.. give supplement when e body cannot absorb le. Dun be sad le *hugs*
i'm sure he will be fine too... joker sounds like me!! food poisoning... hehe... i guess he will lose some weight and cannot take too rich things... his body will kinda detox itself hopefully... get well soon joker!!
thanks girls.. so sad to see him so sick.. n then me really no life when he is sick lor.. cannot go out.. cos wo bu fan xin to let him be alone at home...gotta stay around in case anything.. Haiz.
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He didn't even care about how you feel! Why should you? Please go see doctor!
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Dear girl...*hugs* * pats*
u did the rite move in moving on... dun doubt urself... u did ur best... ALWAYS remember that... get well and look after yourself... joker needs u... u need a listening ear or need ppl to go out with can always find us k *hugs*
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Hi gal, u seemed to write out what i wanted to tell E....... hiaz...block n delete him ba. if not hurt will keep coming... That guy not worth yr tears neither he worth yr time. You are joker's everything! Love me love my pet!
I am really impressed with ur tolerance towards this guy... something I will nv be able to do and I seems like a spoilt brat gf in comparison to u... u definitely deserve better!! We are all behind u to support u in ur first step out of his life... jia you!! *Hugs*
he is a part of my life for so long.. i just feel so lost without him.. time n time again.. he cannot make a decision.. even when he did.. i think its not wat i wanna hear..
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I totally u/s how u felt for yr pet! They are always there for us!
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Monday, June 20, 2005

guess who is which.. hee hee.. cannot show front view.. too sexy.. later nose bleed
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My back.. lol.. cannot show face
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
I hate this kind of feeling.. Makes me wonder if I really did the right thing... But I have been waiting for him to give me an answer for so so long n I'm really tired of waiting. If he really think that I am really important to him. I dun have to wait so long for an answer. So I think he is afraid that he will make the wrong decision. It kinda of sucks.. when u care so much abt someone.. n in return.. u get uncertainty n sadness..
Somehow I got the feeling that he is still pissed of with me.. Haiz.. I really dun know what I should do anymore... I think he must be thinking I gave him up because of Joker.. It's not the case.. Recently.. everytime he is angry with me makes me reconsider my decision.. I mean.. I love him but I cannot stand him being angry with me for no apparent reasons.. N when I ignore him.. he became more angry with me... Its weird.. since he is the one angry with me n since I know he is not gg to forgive me anytime soon.. I might as well not say anything to him in case I make it worse.. Not a day pass by without me thinking.. Ok.. should I call or talk to him today.. Maybe he is not angry already.. but after dialling the first few nos.. I chickened out.. Sometimes I wondered why am I so afraid to call him.. so afraid that he is gg to tell me.. OK.. maybe we should not see each other anymore.. haiz.. it's really is a terrible feeling.. maybe I really am a weakling.
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
Haiz.. sometimes when one thing goes wrong.. all thing will start going wrong as well.. I am already suffering frm a bout of uncertainty n then Joker starts to fall sick again... Yesterday he again vomit n LS.. This is the 4th time since May lor.. Its like i gotta bring him to the vet almost once every 2 weeks...
This time I decided that I'm not gg to bring Joker back to the same vet.. So i switch to another vetinary instead.. The vet actually advise me to bring Joker home n observe him for 2 days n if he is not getting any better then I'll bring him in again.. She also say that if i want they will run a series of test for Joker to see what is wrong .. so I agreed.. they took some X-ray for him n also took a blood test.. Blood test was alright except he is not getting enuff nutrients.. X-ray of the kidney n liver also shows that everything is fine.. But the intestine one shows that his intestine is choked.. Or blocked... cos air cannot pass through a past of the intestine..
Vet says only got 3 reasons as to why it will happen.. which is 1. a bile prob.. whereby he will need long term medication.. 2. food poisoning which will clear after a while n 3. something stuck there. So Joker was hospitalised overnight to be observed..
I went to visit him this afternoon.. N not allowed to bring him back cos they wanna collect the poo sample.. Which in this case.. joker did not poo at all since his admission. So i went back without him.. Poor baby was crying when I left.. Its was so heartbreaking to see him on drip in the cage.. crying for me.. but i want him to get well so I got no choice..
Vet calls me at 6.30pm telling me Joker can be discharged.. At that time I was abt to take a nap.. But once I received the call.. I suddenly feel so much awake.. Went for dinner with my cousin before I went to pick Joker up cos if not once I bring Joker home.. I dun wanna leave him alone liao.. Was eating at Long John Silver when Dongdong called me.. He say he wanna meet me for dinner but I told him I was eating already... So he say he will pick me up n bring me to the vet to pick Joker up.. Hee hee.. got a free ride.. can save on my cab trip..
Now Joker is back home already.. but he still got soft poo poo.. N the nurse only give me antibotics for Joker to take.. So weird.. she says that is all.. I din ask too much.. cos was too excited that I can bring him home liao.. Now I debating as to whether he has eaten already or not.. n whether he has taken his med.. Tried calling the vet in the car but it's already closed.. So sad.. Tml i must called to ask abt the soft poo..
Vet says that in Joker case.. He got food poisoning.. N his stomach do not have a chance to rest before we start feeding him again.. that is the reason why it lasted for so long.. Hmm.. so weird right? then she says that by putting Joker on drip.. allows his stomach to rest n then he will be alright.. I really hope so lor.. If not i gotta bring him down again .. I will cry lor..
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
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Monday, June 13, 2005
I asked u a question.. If I do not have Joker.. will anything change? U din answer.. I think not.. It's not the fact that u cannot understand Joker's importance to me that makes up my mind.. but rather the fact that u are always angry with me n the time I spent in tears n fears... worrying abt wat I should do n wat I must say to u so that I will not make u angry again. It's painful n hardwork.. n miserable as well. Although I must admit that without Joker.. alot of arguments will not happen.. but even if I do not have Joker now.. I will have a dog in the future. It is wat I always wanted.. A dream...I guess u have forgotten the time when I chat with u late into the night and ask u to hold on cos I wanna chk on Joker n make sure he is sleeping well. I guess u also forget that u told me I will be a good mum next time. I guess u also forgot telling me that Joker is like my baby.. U din watch him grow up yet I keep u inform everything abt him since the very beginning because I koe u dun like dogs. N I hope by telling u all that.. u will understand.. I dun need u to like him.. just need u to accept him..
U say that I understand u alot but its not true anymore.. I do not understand y u are always angry with me.. I do not understand wat I have done to incur ur warth everytime when we are out.. N when I ask u always dun answer.. Haiz.. Loving u is no longer sufficient to keep this relationship gg.. I have gave it my best shot. No more regrets watsoever... even a chance to turn back time.. there's nothing i will change.. nothing..
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I dunno wat to say. But u just need time like me. Guess once you start work u wun have enough time to think of him liao
Sunday, June 12, 2005
U always say that u do not know wat is it that u really want... but i think that u already got the answer.... n the answer is not me... It does not matter anymore.. I am really tired of lying to myself time n time again.. Pretending that I am happy.. Pretending that I am not hurt n that ur actions/ attitutes do not meant anything.. Thinking back maybe it was a mistake to pretend for so long.. We already know that it is not gg to work out eventually... but I just cannot bear to let u go... I ask u once if u can still see us tog down the road in 10 yrs time n u say yes.. Now when I ask myself the same questions.. my ans is NO.. Not when u do not understand me.. Not when u do not believe in the things that I believe in n not when u are nv gg to accept the importance of Joker in my life..
Before we were even together.. U already know the existence of Joker n u told me that u will be able to accept a dog for ur gf sake.. Ok ok.. I reminded myself time n time again.. then wat more do u expect frm me? U expect me to do everything that u want me to do.. to give up everything for u? If I do that.. what will I get back in return? Ur coldness towards me? Ur heck care attitude? Ur 'I-am-playing game now.. do not bother me' treatment? I'm not waiting for u anymore.. I'm drained.. emotionally drained... I dun koe how u manage to do it... but recently.. u make me feel like trash.. something u can pick n throw at whim..
I guess it is really time to say goodbye... It's enough already.. I have tried my best to give in to u. But what u gave back to me is not wat I wanted. U no longer know what is it that I want frm u anymore. U can only remember wat u want frm me.. It's really enough.. Memories will remain forever but as time pass.. it will fade... let's just hope that the memories left behind is a beautiful one... N if u are reading this now.. I wish you all the best in ur future relationship. N to remind u. To make it work... u have to put in the effort n remember.. it is not a one-sided thingy..
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
I have always wanted a dog since I was a small girl.. It was my ultimate dream to own one.. N when I finally have the chance to have a dog.. I did not let the opportunity slip away.. I first met Joker when he was only 19 days old.. he was only the size of my palm n he n his brother stole my heart... I wanted him so badly tt I decide I'm gg to keep him at all cost... N I did.. I bought him home when he was 2 mths old without fully knowing the depth of my responsibilities towards him... Although I must admit.. I did regret my decision on the 2nd day cos he was so lost n pitiful n I keep punishing him for urinating everywhere.. but eventually.. Joker became a part of me n my life... He is not a purebreed dog but I love him nonetheless... Pure or Unpure does not matter to me in anyway..
My responibilities towards Joker does not end by justing feeding n cleaning him.. It involves lotsa loves n care n patience.. I have to bring him down to pee n poo twice a day without fail. Although my parents does help me out once in awhile.. The responsibility still lies with me.. i have to make sure that I do not let Joker control his bladder for more than 12 hrs. N therefore when I go out with my frens.. I have to be home by a certain time. I do not wish to engage in my parents help too often because they will nag at me n I do not wish to be see as irresponsible incase one day, they decide to give him away cos I'm not taking care of him.. Although.. they love Joker also.. But.. who knows what might happen..
Joker is not just a pet in my life.. He is my companion, my friend, my baby n my responsibility... He is like the pillar in my life giving me strength n hope when I am feeling down n sad. He is the one that is there for me when I am lonely n down.. entertaining me with his funny actions. He is the one always there for me when I cried softly to myself in bed sometimes... licking my tears away n showing me comfort... He is my life, my everything... He is the one that needs me around when he is sick.. Lying in my lap for comfort n trusting that I will do anything to make him feel better..
His love for me is unconditional.. N I koe he loves me alot... Whenever he knows that I'm gg out without him... he will be very unhappy. But he will always be waiting for me happily when I return home even if I just went downstairs for 5 mins. He will be wagging his tail happily n following me around the house. I am that important to him as well.. Even when the rest if my family is at home, he will always been in my room with me n near me to give me comfort. I cannot live without him in my life. I love him so so much
If he were to leave me one day.. A part of me will die together with him. No matters what happen he will always remain in my heart always. So I will always treasure all the time that I had spent with him...
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Life is so damm bored.. Y can't it be simpler n not so complicated? Then maybe I'll be happier... Passing each day has become such a bore... I'm so bored.. Maybe I should just get another pet..
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